December.

December is minutes away. For me, it always brings love, laughter, and a sobering reminder of a plan put into action and made complete by the maker of the stars; the one who's ways are not our ways nor whose thoughts are our thoughts. 

Sometimes life throws these moments right in front of you. Moments that stop you dead in your tracks, cause you to breathe a little heavier, make your throat lumpy, and your eyes fill up with tears-

Not because what's happening is sad, but because you know that moment is passing faster than a speeding bullet and the second you blink it's gone. 

I'm a dreamer, an idealist. Always have been. It has it's perks, but sometimes I have to remind myself to be present especially in this season of motherhood. 

I love the quote, "You will never have this day with your children again. Tomorrow they’ll be a little older than they were today. This day is a gift. Just breathe, notice, study their faces and little feet. Pay attention. Relish the charms of the present. Enjoy today, it will be over before you know it."

That quote alone makes the tears flow. 

I'm thankful for moments like tonight where I stopped to watch my children find joy in decorating our humble little tree while we sipped hot chocolate and watched Christmas movies. There is so much beauty that is in store for them that they don't even know is already in the works. I can't wait to share those with them and here on this little space, but tonight I wanted to share what was on my heart after I soaked up this precious time and tucked them in bed. 

Knowing that Ryan has worked continually in providing a future for not just me, but my kids also, and that those things will be played out over the next 30 days reminded me of how God is constantly working in our lives in ways we don't or can't always see. 

3 "When I consider your heavens,
    the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
    which you have set in place,
4 what is mankind that you are mindful of them,

    human beings that you care for them?"

I can't help but dream of our family and what God has in store for all of us over the next month and years to come. I can't help but praise Him, thank Him, and humble myself before Him for all the plans he's put it to place without me even knowing.

"But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."