I'll never forget they way I felt the moment I stepped up to the alter, joined hands with Ryan and listened as pastor Don began to read aloud the lyrics to the song I chose as I walked down the aisle:
There is good truth
That you could never change
No matter what you do
You are loved
More than you know
More than you could hope for
After everything you've done
As sure as the sun will rise
And takes away the night
His mercy will not end
His mercy will not end
There is good news
There's a promise
That no matter where you go
You will never be alone
In the dark
In the doubting
When you can't feel anything
Oh, his love remains the same
As sure as the sun will rise
And takes away the night
His mercy will not end
His mercy will not end
Even through the night
Silver stars will shine
Hope of glory's light
That will wake us once again
As sure as the sun will rise
And takes away the night
As sure as the sun will rise
His mercy will not end
His mercy will not end"
As Sure As The Sun by Ellie Holcomb.
I didn't intend to get teary-eyed or a little weepy, but the second I heard those lyrics I typed in bold I could barely hold back the tears.
There was something about having that song read back to us as part of our marriage covenant that not only brought the tears; it brought the picture and purpose of marriage exactly the way it was created by our Heavenly Father to life.
Seconds before I felt giddy, filled with joy and overwhelmed with gladness.
As Pastor Don continued to read, I was quickly sobered and filled with humility because not only has my savior loved me at my darkest and when I didn't want to feel anything, so has Ryan.
I stood up there with Ryan and a room full of loved ones, most of my village in that little chapel where we were wed, who have all loved me not just on the good days but also at my darkest.
In that moment I felt so undeserving, yet so much gratitude that God would choose to give me this life.
